GUEST POST BY PNUT
Funny. It’s always very hard to start writing. You’re there, knowing what to write and thinking restlessly on the best way to express your views, and the problem always is: how to start.
So, I decided, to cut introductions and life complications by keep it basic and by starting from the very beginning:
A: Air. Something I am gonna probably need after I finish writing this. Going through the emotions of a pregnancy from the point of view of a father-to-be and, especially, trying to share these emotions with somebody other than my brain. In case you were wondering is a complicated business for someone like me. Air hopefully coming in a metallic box bottle-shaped, possibly soon since I fell I might need some very soon.
B: baby. In case you were about to ask that’s what we are going to have, a bundle of joy on the shape of a two-legged, two-armed, ten-fingered, ten-toed combination of TopoT and myself (hopefully… just kiddin’).
C: C-Section. I guess both T and I kinda fear it. And also don’t approve the new American trend of going for the Cesarean when not medically appropriate. But, hey, your belly, your choice. I am sure I‘ll have the chance to explain our view later but I guess we both would love to avoid a major surgery for something as natural as birth. Granted, if there is no medical urgency.
D: diapers. Holy-Mother-Of-All-The-Choices is complicated!!!! Disposable diapers, cloth diapers, G-(Gee) diapers…cost vs comfort vs environmental impact vs convenience vs availability vs parents mental sanity (sani-what?). What to do? What to chose? Who to listen to…? HELP!!!!!!!!!!! For anyone out there who as the ultimate answer, please share it. I don’t need lessons, comparisons, descriptions. No. I NEED AN ANSWER!!
E: Escherichia coli. According to Wiki:” is a Gram-negative rod-shaped bacterium that is commonly found in the lower intestine of warm-blooded organisms (endotherms). Most E. coli strains are harmless, but some, such as serotype O157:H7, can cause serious food poisoning in humans and are occasionally responsible for product recalls”. This is what my beloved T-positive Topo-shaped wife is handling in class during her microbiology lab lessons now, 7 months preggo. I am saying this because there’s a chance she told you she was working with Ebola, so I wanna set the record straight, and because it’s kinda scary to think of her elbow-deep in bacteria cultures while pregnant of our first child (btw, if this was or second I am sure I would definitely not mind).
F: here we go: Father. That’s what I am going to be. Soon. Scary? A bit but I guess excitation is prevailing. It is super fascinating to see how your mind works for you during these 9 months of wait. You have to do nothing. Just sit there and relax, your mind does it all.
I think I went through the panic OH-MY-GOD OH-MY-GOD OH-MY-GOD period during our first pregnancy, the one that ended up in a miscarriage a little over 8 weeks after conception. I guess I wasn’t really ready. And I feel a bit guilty, to think about it, because in some ways I used that awful experience to get ready and it was only at the time we got pregnant again that I realized that this can be done without major personal crisis. So…yes, I am super excited to be a daddy. I just hope I’ll be a good one and a cool one too!!
G: Gender. A little girl but with light blue basinet sheets. Something tells me she is in for a road of confusion.
H: Hotel. Where I am gonna be living if I keep on leaving the toilet seat up. Sorry folks, just a personal reminder on the hardship of marriage…
I: Isola (la). The Island. Lido, where I am from. I can’t wait to stroll around there with my Topo and the little one, showing them off to all the 10 people that still live there. Did T. ever mention that I grew up in a tiny, sad, remote fisherman island off Venice…?
J: Jersey (New). Where our little one is going to be born. Weird.
K: Kudos. I love this word, don’t you?
L: Love. Unconditional.
M: mother. Or, which is better, Topo-mommy. She is going to be the best. You can already tell she has this mix of love, sweetness and curiosity that will make our little one very happy of her mother. I think (and I am not discovering anything new here…) it’s impossible to foresee how you are going to raise your kid, but the reason I know TopoT is going to be a great mother is because she knows very well where she is coming from. And that’s enough for me to know she’s going to be the best.
Speaking of motherhood, pregnancy and big bellies: sometimes I call her during the day expecting her saying with in a annoyed tone:” I am studying some very boring genetic stuff, what’s up?” and instead I get:
P:”hey babe, how’s goin’?”
T: “hihiihihihi (giggle) me belly is moving”
P: “really? And what are YOU doing?”
T: watching it move hihihiihihih (giggle)
P:Since when were you watching her move?
T: since 9 o’clock this mornin’ (it’s 3 in the afternoon)
Isn’t it cool? Isn’t it fantastic that you can actually see and feel your growing kid moving and doing all sorts of things…inside you? I am actually kinda of jealous of not being able to feel that. Really. I know, it’s obvious…, it’s not easy and it is very, very uncomfortable but from the point of view of a future mother must be 100 times more exciting and intriguing then from the father side. I mean….you have your baby growing in you, moving and doing all sort of shit, how great is that!?! ( a screaming voice in the background: “NEXT TIME YOU HAVE THE BABY!!!!!”)
N: Nieces & Nephews. Both my brother and T’s brother are having babies this year (well….my brother just did). Awesome, a full on herd of little cousins spread in two continents, originally coming from 3 continents…something tells me that these babies will be flying quite a lot.
O: OOOOOHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!: It all starts from there, right?
P: parents. Mine (sorry Topo…). I lost my mother when I was 12 and my father when I was 22 so the concept of “parenting/ parents” is not too imprinted in me. I guess the idea of becoming one is (awesome) exciting but put me a bit out of balance because I haven’t had one in a long time. The only thing I have to do, I know, is sit back and relax (see letter F) ‘cause my mind is going to do all the hard work and hopefully she’ll show me the way.
Q: Quality of living. People say your life if gonna change after a baby arrives. That nothing is going to be the same. True, I am sure it is. But you’ll eventually get an extra buddy for all the adventures you have in mind: fishing, canoeing, climbing, camping….I mean, when I was a kid it was rare that my father would bring me to hikes or fishing…but when he did, it was the best thing in the world and he was the very best daddy E-V-E-R!!!
Of course, who knows if our little one is going to enjoy all the things T and I do with our free time…but…chances are (and if genetics actually work the way they say…) that she will. And we have a whole word to explore.
R: REM-Rapid Eyes Movement. Again, according to Wikipedia: “is a normal stage of sleep characterized by the rapid movement of the eyes. (…) REM sleep is physiologically different from the other phases of sleep, which are collectively referred to as Non-REM (NREM sleep). Vividly recalled dreams mostly occur during REM sleep.” . Now, I have a question for all you parents out there. It is known that a new parent does-not-sleep. Ever. When did you start having a decent night sleep again? (If you say: “ when she’s at Grandma’s” you are banned for life from this site)
S: uhmmmm…well…I wanted to talk about that. You know….kinda like with letter O but before this all ruckus called pregnancy (and…well…as a result of which there is one)? Anyway….as of the S-leep…: when? WHEEEEEEN???
T: Tazzybu. The topo of my life (as I never fail to remind her).
U: ugly. Sorry, I was thinking about Berlusconi and this word came out. Now it’s too late and I can’t take it back…nothing to do with pregnancy stuff but that man is ugly and a criminal and I have the right to say it if I want to. How many curses are there in English language starting with the letter U? Ulcer-face, ugly dumb fuck, Ultra piece of shit….
V: vomit. A lot, on the first 4 months of T’s pregnancy. If it’s true that morning sickness makes for a healthy baby ours is going to be a super-baby.
W: writing. I have been instructed by you-know-whom to write something about pregnancy from the point of view of a father to be. I probably didn’t stay in topic 100% but I hope that, by reading this, you get a bit of an idea of what goes around my mind during this exciting period. I am not a good writer and if you want to know more about it, please come to our place with a bottle of good red wine and we can talk all night. And if you also bring some good meat you’ll be my new best friend.
X: I admit I have difficulties finding a relevant world starting with X. After all, how many points you get at Scrabble by using the letter X?
Y: “You’ll see. Having a baby is a whole new level of gear”. To the good friend of ours who once said this, I can now answer: “Yeah, no shit!!”. But, seriously?? Do we really need all of that?? It’s insane and annoying to see how much of a business childbirth and childcare is. Besides the infinite gear choices you have (most of it, I am sure, kinda useless…) but, the prices!!! Insane.
Z: zzzzzzzz ( sound of someone sleeping like a log according to my childhood’s favorite comic book) zzzzzzz.